I AM DISGUSTED!!!!!!

i can't believe that they actually hung saddam hussein!!!!and i can't believe that they are actually showing it on TV and they are also flashing his dead body like it's on exhibtion or something!!!
it's not like i m saying that saddam was a good human being or something like that.....i abhor him...but right now i can't decide who i abhor more....him or bush!!!!the US actually wanted his execution to be aired and his dead body to be shown on tv like its a piece of art on display!!!it's so pathetic...i don't know what the world has come to.
i am vehemently against the death penalty....i mean hanging saddam makes absolutely no sense....so he has been convicted, he has been found guilty (though whether his trial was jsut or not is a completely different issue)....but to kill him...then what's the difference between him and the people who want to see him dead??
i am hoping mad right now....fuming!!!they showed him walking towards the gallows and then they put the noose around his head.....and the next thing that they show is his dead body covered in a white cloth!!its disgraceful and shameful that we have the death penalty still in the first place but to make such an exhibition out of it makes it even harder to believe!!!
the imposition of the death penalty is such a disgrace to the whole international human rights regime.....there are ways and means of punishing the accused....but to put him to death is nothing but a form of torture sanctioned by the state
the death penalty is nothing but a noose around human dignity and this noose is getting tighter by the day with executions like these!!

had such a tumultuous day!! first college.....had the longest day there....came face to face with administrative trouble in college.....n the registrar's PA told me on my face...."nothing gets done in 1 day in the registrar's office"!!so a bonafide letter that i asked for will take 4 days to process n probably more!!!ufffffff ki frustating!!!!! work is just piling up n piling up n no signs of ne sanity in my life!!
then came home n had a tiff wit mom.....my fault so i shut up in the end...coz i realised that i was being unreasonable...n then it ended wit ma saying one line that all but killed me!
feeling sad.....all alone at home...tv is on n loads of work piled up on the table n i m sitting in front of the comp!hv 3 fat books that i hv to read and a FIR and complaint that i hv to file for sunday.........
i need some order and peace in my life.....just dont know how n where to get it.....coz i end up messing things for myself.....feel something missing....dont know wat....maybe its just the confusion in my head that needs to be cleared up first!

cranky post!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

down with the stooopid viral fever!!!!aaaaaaaaaaa.............my legs feel like they're made of steel...cant move them.......my whole body aches, my throat hurts, my eyes burn, dont feel like eating, feel like puikng everything i eat, burning up wit fever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
n the ironical part is this is the one chance i can get to sleep all day literally all day without feeling guilty....i mean i'm practically being forced to sleep n i dont feel like sleeping!!!!aaaahhhh the many ironies of life i guess!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!hv so much of work n deadlines to meet up to it isnt even funny...cant afford to hv the darned flu now!!!

for a moment of peace

I laughed again yesterday. After six months I laughed again. And this time it came from the heart. I felt like myself again after ages. I felt good about myself. I saw a fairy dancing. She perched herself on my nose and sneezed. Some of the sparkle from her sprinkled all over me, and my world looked a brighter place.
I giggled like a stupid girl yesterday. I asked stupid questions. I got stupid answers. I believed them. I kissed the air and hoped the breeze carried it to him.
Few moments of happiness. Of life. I felt like living again. I felt alive. I felt reunited with my soul. I felt at peace with myself. Few moments of bliss.
I longed for a moment with him. Yesterday. I longed to touch him, to see him. I longed for him. Yesterday.
Today I shed a tear for him. In his absence. My heart longs for him. My soul is waiting for him.

I saw a fairy die today. All the sparkle disappeared.
Hope died. My dreams died with it. I lost my faith. Promises were broken. My heart broke with it.
I stepped out of myself and looked at me. I saw a young girl sitting in the corner of the room, holding her knees to her chest, shaking, trembling, crying. And it came from the heart. I saw her broken.
I saw her soul. It was empty. I felt her pain. It was unbearable. She had been betrayed. Her faith had been broken.
Her eyes, her heart, her body her soul were all weeping. He had told her to trust him, she had. He had promised her that he would come back for her, come back to her, that he would take her with him. He had said that things would be different this time. She had believed him. She had trusted him. She had waited for him. She had loved him. He did not come. He did not return for her. He did not come back to her. He left her waiting forever.

I closed my eyes.

I longed for a moment of peace.